Wednesday, July 25, 2012

Four long days away

In Jakah's 2 1/2 years of life, I have only spent two nights away from him. Once was recently when I was in the hospital having his brother. I am rarely gone from him longer than 10 hours. There has never been a day that I have not seen Jakah's smiling face.

Tomorrow my husband will take Jakah camping in Ocean Shores with his entire family. This is something we do every year. This is the first time in 10 years I won't be joining them.
Hahaha!
Its no secret that I am not a huge fan of camping


















We decided that camping with a newborn sounds horrific. Its windy, and cold, and again they are camping. So I am staying home with Jensen.


That's my type of camping :)



















It is the longest I will ever be away from Jakah.

I have so many emotions about this.

I am excited, I will get a little break. Casey will be in charge for 4 days. Sure he'll have help from his family, but its the longest he will spend with Jakah without me. He will do fine. I am hopeful that he will see what its like to be around him constantly like I am. Perhaps a little glimpse into my daily life. (of course he will have tons of help and things to entertain each other, and no baby)

I am sad. 4 days might not seem like much, but its a pretty long time. Seriously there has never been a day where I have not seen Jakah. And while most days, I am exhausted by the end of the night, and excited for him to go to bed. I am sad that I won't get to see him the next day.

Excited again, because it will just be me and the baby. Go shopping at the mall, sure its easy with a newborn. Friends want to meet for breakfast or lunch, why not? I'll only have one kid who sleeps all the time instead of trying to manage two in a restaurant.

It's 4 days where I can do / go anything I want. (well mostly, I can't take a baby to the casino or the bar!) Watch whatever I want on TV? Sure there's no kid here requesting "Einsteins or Mickey's House" Jensen wants me to just sit and hold him all day, OK I won't have to chase a toddler around, or clean the house since we aren't as messy.

Then I am sad again, I will miss him. While he is a toddler and frustrates me, He is also funny and makes me laugh. What will I do without having to chase a toddler around?

Its the first time he actually realizes he is going somewhere. I don't know if he comprehends it, but he talks about going to the ocean. And riding in papa's truck.

I hope they have fun. But not too much fun without me!

I hope its a good break for Jakah and myself to be apart. I hope he misses me, but I wonder if he will even notice I am not around. Will he be sad? Will he care that I am not there? Am I being selfish secretly hoping he will miss me?

So its going to be 4 long days..... It might not seem like much, but to me its a lifetime.



11 comments:

  1. I'm sure you will miss Jakah a lot, but I hope you get to do enough fun things to keep yourself distracted. Then you'll get to love on him a whole bunch when he comes home! I bet he'll be so excited to tell you about all of his adventures. :) I hope you enjoy your time!

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    1. Thanks! I have a few things planned out to keep myself distracted

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  2. i'm sure you will miss him but it will give him a chance to have different kinds of experiences with just his dad. When my son wasn't quite 2 he and hubs went to the East coast for a wedding & to visit family. I was too pregnant to go..which turned out to be a blessing b/c I ended up with preterm labor and being put on bedrest.

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    1. It is good for them to have alone time too. Good thing you didn't go! How long were you on bedrest?

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  3. We camped with a baby under 1.
    once.
    there endeth the lesson. LOL

    now the youngest is over 2 years and we are heading out into the wilds soon.
    I do love camping....but I also hope a nice spa in somewhere in my near future too.
    The woods are murder on pedicures!

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    1. Woods are killer on pedicures for sure! But they are camping at the beach. So they will have lots of sand in places they didn't know they had

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  4. It can be rough, that first time away. Even now, with teenagers - we've decided 10 days is our limit. After that we just miss them too much.

    I'll probably have to move into their dorm at college.

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    1. That will be fun, living at college again. But what would you do with the little ones? I guess teach them to keg stand early ha ha!

      I know it will be good for them, but its still hard

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  5. I will be getting a total "kid vacation" for a full week here soon and I'm...IDK! This will be the first time in 12 years that my husband and I will be together without children. Sure, in the past year we've had a night or 2 here and there when they were both at sleepovers or something. But a whole week? I'm really not sure what we're going to do with ourselves. But I know it's going to be great, for ALL of us, the kids and us. They will have so much fun at Grandma & Grandpa's, where Grandpa just finished building a treehouse. I'm slightly worried about this being my son's first trip away from us, but with his big sister there, and lots to do, he should be fine. So will your little guy.

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    1. Its been a long 4 days, and I can't wait for them to get home today. I was a little bored, because it was just me and the baby. But I got some things done around the house, got to go shopping and actually look at stuff and even hit up the casino and won some money. But I am definitely ready for them to come home! I hope you and your husband have fun on your kid vacation!

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  6. I hope that it went well and you were able to relax a little.

    I'm heading home now, having been away from my kids since Wednesday morning. This is the longest I've been away from them in over 5 years. It was nerve-wracking. But they all survived(and Daddy bought them a cat!) and I had a wonderful time. But I'm ready to be HOME.

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